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sn0w1337

sn0w1337

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did my first hour today, it was pretty much what i expected...besides other points of interest. didn't realize i would be hearing stories of crack and meth heads as well.

heard some pretty fucked up pasts that had caused them to abuse alcohol and drugs. it's crazy being in a room with a lot of other people that drown them selves in alcohol because of their past as well as i do.

i do actually feel better after going, but it was very uncomfortable when i first got in there seeing people cry. praying to god in a circle kinda weirded me out since i'm really not religious. also people admitted they were put in a mental hospital too.

i couldn't help but think i'm in a room with a bunch of fucking weirdos. i'm gonna attend next sunday as well and go from there. if there weren't any sane people in there, i would not be going next sunday. thankfully there were, i would advise anyone with a problem do go. you honestly do feel better after seeing other people with your same problem, and other people that hurt deep down inside.
 
Good for you Ginger:thumbup
. As for those that have friends or Family with addiction, there is Al-Anon that will help you deal with the stress's of having a close one dealing with addiction or anger.

I wish you the best Ginger if you ever need anything you give me a shout :thumbup
 
If you are really non religous, there is a version hosted at several bay area places that might cater to you better without the god thing. Their name is escaping me at the moment but a quick search should find them. It might be Rational Recovery I think..
 
As for the AA meetings: Take what applies to you, and leave the rest.

Some people in there are not just alcoholics, but were/are drug addicted as well. Though you may not exactly relate to their addictions, you may recognize some of their feelings and situations.

Takes guts to take of yourself like this. :thumbup
 
Coming from someone who's father is an alcoholic.

God or not. You have a lot of people behind you in this for bettering yourself.

Congrats and good luck. :thumbup
 
You can find a schedule that will iist all the local meetings. Generally a "closed" meeting is for alchoholics only and you will hear far fewer drug stories. Open meetings are open to anyone. Yes, there are always crazy people at AA meetings. There actually an AA saying that defines Insanity as "doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results."

Good luck, keep going, you don't have to believe in God or say the word once at an AA meeting. Some people say higher power.
 
:thumbup for going
 
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Way to go dude. And find the right meeting that works for you. Some will be weirder or better than others.
 
I went for a friend because he got a bogus DIP and nearly impossible number of AA's in the timeframe (20 and a month to do it or something). I will NEVER go back. it was wierd.
 
Fuck yeah dude. I've been reading your threads and it seems like you are striving to improve your life. Do the right thing for yourself and your girlfriend. Congratulations on taking the first step. :)
 
Oceansides said:
I went for a friend because he got a bogus DIP and nearly impossible number of AA's in the timeframe (20 and a month to do it or something). I will NEVER go back. it was wierd.
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yes, it was very very weird. they all kept saying they were grateful for the new comer, some old guy said "i can't wait until the day you speak james", got random pats on the shoulder after the meeting was done and a lady came up and shook my hand and welcomed me. it all felt like it was a new relationship that was moving to fast, know what i mean?

as weird as they are, i'm gonna continue to go. i definitely do not want a dui, do not want to lose my current girl over alcohol, getting drunk and topping out the r6 on the highway quite a few times was overly stupid, drinking to the point of blacking out and having my step mom saying i started choking her 3 months ago, hurting the dude although in self defense new years has all played a big role in my changing (i could have just held him down instead of causing him to go to the hospital). this was all just one year ago also, i don't even wanna go into the other many years.

i will be strong about not getting shit faced every night, i do want a wife and a couple kids in a couple years. i do not want to be a dead beat dad that drinks his life away. it's crazy that i feel this way, i mean fucking crazy. i guess this all comes with age? have no idea what a true family is like...but i sure am craving one.

i'm gonna go take a shower and get a few hours of sleep until i need to do my lame morning commute. oh and biker boyz are on, first time seeing it...been watching i think 30 min so far and it's just fucking lame. did i just see kidrock???
 
man was just about to get up and saw rufio from hook (peter pan) movie, that's insane on biker boyz.
 
sn0w1337 said:
yes, it was very very weird. they all kept saying they were grateful for the new comer, some old guy said "i can't wait until the day you speak james", got random pats on the shoulder after the meeting was done and a lady came up and shook my hand and welcomed me. it all felt like it was a new relationship that was moving to fast, know what i mean?

as weird as they are, i'm gonna continue to go. i definitely do not want a dui, do not want to lose my current girl over alcohol, getting drunk and topping out the r6 on the highway quite a few times was overly stupid, drinking to the point of blacking out and having my step mom saying i started choking her 3 months ago, hurting the dude although in self defense new years has all played a big role in my changing (i could have just held him down instead of causing him to go to the hospital). this was all just one year ago also, i don't even wanna go into the other many years.

i will be strong about not getting shit faced every night, i do want a wife and a couple kids in a couple years. i do not want to be a dead beat dad that drinks his life away. it's crazy that i feel this way, i mean fucking crazy. i guess this all comes with age? have no idea what a true family is like...but i sure am craving one.

i'm gonna go take a shower and get a few hours of sleep until i need to do my lame morning commute. oh and biker boyz are on, first time seeing it...been watching i think 30 min so far and it's just fucking lame. did i just see kidrock???
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Good. you need AA, I probably dont. Make us proud by coming to grips with your life man!
 
:thumbup Congrats - you've taken the most important step = the first one!! :applause

Many, many thousands claim IT WORKS. :cool

Props to you for reclaiming your life and starting a new, better, saner, healthier one!! :hail

Try other times/locations, each may have a different 'flavor' - just keep at it.

;)
Yana:banana
 
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