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My OG mend has started.

I missed the beginning of this but I have an excuse from a cardiologist.

Femur fractures are no joke. When I ski patrolled I saw a few stomach flipping femoral freakouts.

You must be throwing a leg over by now?
 
Well Jim.

I threw a leg over, but I have not gone for a ride. I believe I can now get a moto boot on by myself and have high hopes of getting it off by myself. The plan is to go for a ride on my BDay. April 25th. It will be 7 months from the break.

I am going to also move back into my bedroom. I have seen it once... when I had to find clothes for a memorial.
There is still a ways to go to be considered recovered. Mostly walking without the cane now but still need it going up and down (!) stairs.

My martial arts caning continues to improve. Really has taken some time to get my left side back in the game. Not there yet, but looking better. :teeth

Feeling some of my Kobudo routes. Using a Bo, Tonfa, Nunchaku and a wooden Katana (Bokken) were super fun as a teen / young adult. Did not realized I missed it until I put a cane in my hand 24/7. I need to find that Bokken and graduate back into a practice weapon. It always impressed my kids... I am sure the grandkids will be quite :wtf if I can regain some of those skills.
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Sorry for the tangent :laughing
 
Well Jim.

I threw a leg over, but I have not gone for a ride. I believe I can now get a moto boot on by myself and have high hopes of getting it off by myself. The plan is to go for a ride on my BDay. April 25th. It will be 7 months from the break.

I am going to also move back into my bedroom. I have seen it once... when I had to find clothes for a memorial.
There is still a ways to go to be considered recovered. Mostly walking without the cane now but still need it going up and down (!) stairs.

My martial arts caning continues to improve. Really has taken some time to get my left side back in the game. Not there yet, but looking better. :teeth

Feeling some of my Kobudo routes. Using a Bo, Tonfa, Nunchaku and a wooden Katana (Bokken) were super fun as a teen / young adult. Did not realized I missed it until I put a cane in my hand 24/7. I need to find that Bokken and graduate back into a practice weapon. It always impressed my kids... I am sure the grandkids will be quite :wtf if I can regain some of those skills.
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Sorry for the tangent :laughing
Back in the 70's & 80's there was a terrific Kenpo Karate dojo in downtown Menlo Park, "Ed Parker's Kenpo Karate" run by Harvey Clary (Clarey?) on Menlo Ave/El Camino. I trained there for years & was on their tournament fighting team, we got to go all over California. We'd train inside, go for a group run to the park Santa Cruz/University and work out there or down to the seminary on Middlefield Rd- talk about turning heads. They did staff/cane training, but I never got around to doing that side of it. Thanks for the memory!
 
Well Jim.

I threw a leg over, but I have not gone for a ride. I believe I can now get a moto boot on by myself and have high hopes of getting it off by myself. The plan is to go for a ride on my BDay. April 25th. It will be 7 months from the break.

I am going to also move back into my bedroom. I have seen it once... when I had to find clothes for a memorial.
There is still a ways to go to be considered recovered. Mostly walking without the cane now but still need it going up and down (!) stairs.

My martial arts caning continues to improve. Really has taken some time to get my left side back in the game. Not there yet, but looking better. :teeth

Feeling some of my Kobudo routes. Using a Bo, Tonfa, Nunchaku and a wooden Katana (Bokken) were super fun as a teen / young adult. Did not realized I missed it until I put a cane in my hand 24/7. I need to find that Bokken and graduate back into a practice weapon. It always impressed my kids... I am sure the grandkids will be quite :wtf if I can regain some of those skills.
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Sorry for the tangent :laughing

Oh, man. That's some serious recovery work.

I practiced Shotokan ( Kyokushinkai )from about 10 years of age to my 30s. My father in law taught Kendo at an Oyama dojo in "Barkerey" and used to use me as a human bash post.
Great workout though, hand to cane defense training.
3 damaged cervical disks ended any full contact sparring or combat. (Not from Ono's bokken, from a surfing mishap)
Serious PT should be a slope that's possible but steep enough to take you to the top again.

Hitotsu!
 
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7mos has arrived. I can see how much progress has been made and clearly see there is a lot to go.

Only use the cane to go upstairs and do cool martial arts sword shit now. :teeth

The dedication to rehab has paid off for sure.
I am generally healthier now than before the break (other than the leg) so that is one good thing about this process.

Gym is now a good habit and it makes me happy where not much else does. Certainly living in a rut and generally not real happy. The mental side has taken a toll on how I feel about myself and life. I guess sort of depressed on and off.

Tuesday I went to do an MRI for my shoulder so I can do a cortisone shot and failed to get in that fucking little tube. My shoulders are too wide and as soon as they said pull your elbows in to clear access and started sliding me in with pressure holding my arms still my anxiety went to the moon and I bailed out.

Not sure if I will even try the drug route to do it.
Just frustrated as hell with the current status but can sure acknowledge the improvement. That is huge.

After walking five or six very gimpy steps I can start to walk with zero limp. Sit for two minutes and the process starts over. Leg gets “rusty” super quick and the limp comes right back.

Really need to shake off the up and down mental crap.
 
Really need to shake off the up and down mental crap.
I don't usually give up my magical, mystical ways.. but for you, I'll make an exception.
A sam harris quote I like on "pain and suffering"... I think it to myself often.
"By the time you feel physical pain, you've already endured that moment. The suffering is your runaway thinking about enduring it in future moments." :nerd
I'm in pain most of the time... but I suffer very little.
 
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Find a facility that has an open MRI. No claustrophobia. I’m surprised nobody has mentioned this.
 
Regarding your mental ups and downs...I know it sounds trite but you're already living a life that 90% of the world can only dream about.
Sleeping in a safe place, having a roof over your head, fresh water, plentiful food, not having to worry about the cost of something small when you buy it.

A long rehab sucks, but there are a lot who are worse off.
 
Yes! And add to that having your own business in perhaps the richest region on the whole earth. And you ride motorcycles. You are truly blessed.
 
All blessings aside, it sucks there is no denying that. Confidence shattered, belief that 100% recovery is around the corner is full of doubt and the overall disruption in your life merits a bit of head down rock kicking. That is not who all of us know you to be-all that anyone can do is wish you well, encourage you and remind you that YOU GOT THIS!!
The road may be long but at least there is a road and slowing down is not defeat.
 
I’ll also add this. At least you have the hope of full recovery. I, with my stroke, have no hope of ever recovering. I am permanently stuck with left side numbness and partial blindness in my left eye. But I still enjoy my life. And I can still live by myself in the home my lovely wife helped me build and decorate.
 
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Right on about an open MRI, they are much more tolerable. Also many MRI scan-ees benefit from just one relaxant valium which the providers often do for claustrophobia. They shouldn't argue about it after the aborted attempt. The info obtained will be worth the trouble and allow you to better understand the situation and make a more informed decision to proceed or not with interventional treatment. There are shots other than non-curative prednisone to be considered as well.
Sounds like you are getting to the far side of this injury recovery journey, congrats.
 
7mos has arrived. I can see how much progress has been made and clearly see there is a lot to go.

Only use the cane to go upstairs and do cool martial arts sword shit now. :teeth

The dedication to rehab has paid off for sure.
I am generally healthier now than before the break (other than the leg) so that is one good thing about this process.

Gym is now a good habit and it makes me happy where not much else does. Certainly living in a rut and generally not real happy. The mental side has taken a toll on how I feel about myself and life. I guess sort of depressed on and off.

Tuesday I went to do an MRI for my shoulder so I can do a cortisone shot and failed to get in that fucking little tube. My shoulders are too wide and as soon as they said pull your elbows in to clear access and started sliding me in with pressure holding my arms still my anxiety went to the moon and I bailed out.

Not sure if I will even try the drug route to do it.
Just frustrated as hell with the current status but can sure acknowledge the improvement. That is huge.

After walking five or six very gimpy steps I can start to walk with zero limp. Sit for two minutes and the process starts over. Leg gets “rusty” super quick and the limp comes right back.

Really need to shake off the up and down mental crap.
Walk your dog. They love you, but they aren't into your "challenges"- they just want to walk with you.
 
Think about the Mook! I imagine his little world is topsey turkey with you back upstairs.
 
I practiced meditation last week in a couple of ct scans so I was almost ready for an MRI. I took the pill anyway as my claustrophobia seems to rise on my birthday. You’re making me feel old lazy and out of shape budman.
Be well and patient my friend.
 
Think about the Mook! I imagine his little world is topsey turkey with you back upstairs.
Not there yet but next weekend will be. Gonna do some Mook time. 👍🏻

And thanks Chris and all for the positive thoughts. :teeth
 
Budman, you are my heroin for getting in shape!
:teeth

That feels good, but man I got such a long way to go myself.
Just found out the Grandkiddo is sick so no little league game to watch.

So... MotoGP and then the gym to do the leg day stuff.
I was emailing a work dude yesterday that is a big gym rat. I told him I have to go to the Gym so you need to pick up the key to the jobsite by 1pm. I need to know because I have to go.

He called and said lets make it Monday. I said cool and said I can tell I have overcome the lazy because if something comes up and I have to skip the gym I get pissed!! He totally agreed.

Give it a go Chris.
 
Been a minute since I posted here but rolling thru towards 8 months. :(

I did not expect it to be such a drawn out thing but I get why it is.

Been making good progress with rehab and continuing to be an old gym rat.

Did my first “real walk” today. PT woman said it is time to push the doing normal stuff and getting whatever small muscle / nerve shit used to the normal. Something like that.

So I am adding that to the regime 3 days a week I think.

All I know is I walked about a mile. No big pain but mostly it just felt slow. No spring in my step!!

Now I am stretching and doing some forced stretching to continue the scar tissue being over come. That too is something to get back to normal.

It was nice to hear her say that actually.

I have been posting a bit in the get fit thread and honestly I know I am getting more basic fit except for being fucked up, so that is good.

I am doing some more serious dieting now too.
It sucks but maybe I can escape this experience being in a better “life” spot as far as health and rock my 50th high school reunion in August. :teeth

I have a good routine that consumes a decent amount of time each day. Working it 6 days a week is great and I feel lucky that I be able to put in the time.

And… I have ridden yet…. And a rally is right around the corner….. And that kind of bums me out but for some weird reason I am not all antsy to go ride. Probably thanks to the not great weather the last couple weekends and just not feeling the lust. Need that lust to ride back. I know it will light right back up once I get out.
 
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